3-29-07

Sometimes making a collage a day really bites so I’m not going to make them every single day any more. Plus, I love hot dogs!

3-22-07

Moving from negative to positive thinking is going to take some practice. I feel like I’m going thru detox.

3-20-07

i’m sad and unhappy

3-19-07

I started this while thinking about getting back in the swing of things. As I put it together I began to be inundated with thoughts about how love can hurt. I thought about how sometimes letting go of love means tearing it apart. Then you are left with a bunch of things you are unable to love and an attitude of defensiveness when each new love presents itself.

3-18-07

way to go

3-17-07

When you talk about someone when you are really angry with them and you are talking about the ways they make you angry it’s just the same as when people who hit their spouses say ‘I didn’t want to have to hurt you, but you bade me do it!’ YES … other people’s actions or behaviors might make me crazy, but I still have the choice to react in a way that isn’t crazy. And my reactions are the only thing I need to worry about controlling in my relationships.

3-16-07

things are rough all over

3-15-07

I have lots of different things to work on and experience lots of different types of energy. I have the intention to do what is best suited for me in each moment. The trick is figuring out what action any given energy warrants.

3-14-07

It’s springtime! And I’m full of fun springtime energy. I started this collage thinking about how I’d like to keep this energy all year long. Then it dawned on me that what I need to focus on is taking advantage of this energy right now. As I made this I got more excited about how I feel in this moment and all that I can accomplish because of it and I see how to truly chase the desire to feel good. I used to try and recreate earlier times in my life in an attempt to recapture the feelings I had then. I know understand that it’s how I was using my energy that made them good times. I’m getting the idea that happiness isn’t created in the physical, that it can be experienced physically… but it begins some place deeper. I’m tapped into that deep place in this moment for sure.

3-13-07

I have been good at analyzing the hard lessons life has thrown me, and I’m grateful to have had the chance to learn them. Now all the good experiences and memories are coming back to bind those lessons together and give them texture and flavor.

3-12-07

Accomplishments aren’t made by doing a lot in a hurry; they are achieved bit by bit over time. I’m getting into deconstructing images. I cut up a blurry picture of a road, depicting speed, for this collage. The scenery unexpectedly took on an underwater feeling in the end. Another reminder of what can come of following those internal nudges.

3-11-07

Today was the first really nice day all year. So, an ode to sunlight.

3-10-07

working to take advantage of the opportunities that have manifested before me

3-9-07

I’ve been thinking a lot about high school lately. In my life I’ve wanted to go back and be like the person I was in high school, and later thought becoming completely different to what I was back then to be the answer. For this I found a picture of a mid nineties kitchen. It really struck me how rearranging the pieces of the picture made it look totally different. It made me feel good about embracing the energy I possessed in high school, but in a new way.

3-8-07

I was thinking about what a certain character I have in mind needs to learn in their adventure. Small images were calling to me today. While I was cutting them out and gluing them down I had the song A Little Bit stuck in my head. It made me think that one need not give up or take on too much of anything to make a real change.

3-7-07

Thinking about how you want things to be can be detrimental to your health. The antidote? Action!

3-6-07

I couldn’t stop thinking about how people had been annoying me recently. I started to look for images, and the first thing that struck me was a drawing of people celebrating new years. As I cut all the pictures I wanted to use out I thought about how I’m in a place where I’m identifying what I like and what I don’t like. I’m no longer willing to put up with things I would have let slide before. This is causing me pain, but it’s this pain that will help me to move forward. I had all my images together, then the new years drawing fell to the ground and there it said, ‘It’s not just a place. It’s a place in your heart.’ That punctuated what I was going for perfectly.

3-5-07

I just picked out images that struck me. I like the little bear/bee thing. I think it’s cute.

3-4-07

coincidence
when everything coincides

3-3-07

I had a dream last night about someone I was cruel to in the past. I woke up thinking about weather a wrongdoer has the right to apologize. What I came to is that if someone wants to apologize because they have all these idealized notions about how their apology will be accepted they probably aren’t ready to apologize yet… that apologies shouldn’t be offered from a place where the apologizer believes they will get the biggest benefit.

3-2-07

Today I focused on the thoughts yesterday’s collage brought up for me. I saw the image of the car chained to the telephone pole and wanted to use it as a base for a collage about self-imposed restrictions. I then came across the drawing of the woman’s face and the running figure on top of it. It was perfect to illustrate the idea that when I remain in my head I get stuck and the key to success is action. I have been struck by the images that present themselves to me. It’s very cool.

3-1-07

Up and at them. I started making this collage thinking about getting myself into my day. I found a picture of a chain link fence and cut out the links to get the pieces behind the woman, to represent breaking thru barriers. I was interrupted while I was making this and in the moment was very upset (not about being interrupted but by what happened during the interruption). Instead of doing everything I could to push these feelings away I sat with them while finishing this project. It helped me to see how I have been fencing myself in in certain situations, and how I might open the latch and let myself out.