1-8-08

I started this collage thinking about where I’m going. While I was pulling images all I could think about was where I’d been. I had all these nostalgic pulls towards times I haven’t even thought about in months. It made me think about how I used to face my future; I wanted to recreate things the way they had been during times I’d really enjoyed. In trying to do this I succeeded only at keeping my self from growing, so I switched my focus toward figuring out what makes me happy now and pursuing that. In doing so I’ve experienced a resurgence in the type of joy I’d always been after. While making this collage though I really felt that a tangible aspect of the joy was missing. Maybe it’s something that can only be experienced in the summer time or maybe it is something that came only with youth that cannot ever be recaptured. Or maybe it is something that can only be remembered, and I will have the same feelings about this time in my life in five years… this being the first time I realize in the moment that this moment will one day be nostalgic to me.