9-21-07

every day matters as a matter of fact

9-20-07

I was thinking about the difference between what I really want and what is really easy. As I worked on the collage it became clear that all that stands between the two are my choices.

9-19-07

I started this collage with the idea that I want to remove restrictions, strip away any self-imposed rules so I can move freely through my life. These thoughts turned into the fear that without regiments and rules I run the risk of never getting anywhere. I then started thinking about the dangers of going no further than recognizing and pointing out that you do the things you do because of the way you are. I ended up at the idea that there are certain connections between people that make the actions of one a reflection of the other.

I have come to the conclusions that my personal expectations must be based on doing, and that I expect myself to be considerate of and open to others and value only what I know about and think of myself.

9-18-07

think and grow rich

it's all about positive attitude baby, going beyond reframing what you have always thought to the place where you let what hasn't served you fall away leaving only what you know to be true.

9-17-07

I am proud of myself.
I have direction and momentum accompanying me into the future.

9-14-07

I started this collage feeling kind of listless. There wasn’t anything I wanted to do so I began tearing up paper to get my head in the game. I was drawn to picture that represented taking care of my self. One of the ways I am trying to take care of my self is to act upon inspiration when it strikes. I took two breaks from making this collage to do things that suddenly had a pull on me. I’m proud that I was able to allow myself to do what I wanted when I wanted and still come back to finish a task I had committed to complete.

9-13-07

Moving beyond understanding and into feeling is the way I make my dreams come true. There is never a vacation from choosing against doing what’s easy. When I make the choice to focus on what’s good for me (and I know something is good for me if it makes me feel good) the power to do anything is in the palm of my hand.

9-12-07

When making these collages I try to do so with as little expectation about the finished product as possible. They are journey (as apposed to destination) pieces. My method is normally to look thru magazines quickly and pull out anything that jumps out at me. I wanted to get to know a character I’ve been thinking about lately with the making of this collage. While looking for images I found my self staring blankly at several pictures, after a while little details would jump out at me. It made me think that the solution to the problems I’ve been having with the project in mind is to follow my (seemingly off topic) instinct; that the answers I’ve been looking for are hiding inside bigger pictures.

9-11-07

I was open to anything when I began looking for these images. I’d found a few things that made me happy when I saw the wet monkey with his tongue sticking out (how can you not be open to a wet monkey sticking out his tongue?). Then I found the money falling into the hands, and that is something I’m open to. At first I thought about passing it by because I seemed to be in more of a spiritual happiness pattern, but then it became obviate that I needed to use this as a central image because all things are connected. I sprinkled parts of the images I loved among the dollars and coins to show that I want everything. To me the monkey reigning atop things is a reminder not to take everything so seriously. He’s my little patron saint of enjoying life.

9-10-07

The large image is a calendar picture for September. I was thinking about how I might like to grow personally this month while looking for the other images I would use. As I began to put the pictures together I thought about the idea that a person’s nature is inborn. This made me think about wanting to connect to my true nature and the steps I might take to do so. Then, out of nowhere, an idea for a layout I had been toying with earlier today came to me. My mind raced and almost carried me away with all the things I might do with the layout in the future, but I was in the middle of making the collage and the act of putting it together reminded me to stay in the moment, complete my first idea and allow what might happen to happen when the time is right.

9-5-07

please help me see clearly