2-28-07

I just had it!

2-27-07

Wishing you peace, comfort, and love.

2-26-07

I was thinking about being specific with descriptions of how and where things hurt when making this collage. I was actually feeling sort of sick while putting it together and when I came across an image of pizza bagels (the junk food I pigged out on last night much to my stomach’s dismay this morning) I had to incorporate it. That is what covers the patient in the doctor scene.

2-25-07

I began this collage thinking simply of getting down to business. This thought quickly evolved into thoughts about the best way for me to work. As everything came together I got a sense that what my work time was missing. When I was a young gymnast my coach would say ‘put a finish on it’ referring to that ending flourish at the end of a skill or routine, a little something I’ve been neglecting in my daily routines. It isn’t so much the work it self, but the act of working that I need to tie up. The same way I don’t count my laundry being done until the clean cloths are put away, nor can I look at a day of creative work as being over until my notes are filed and supplies put away. Sure I might be in the middle of something, but while the thought can wear till tomorrow the mess doesn’t have to.

2-24-07

I went into this collage with thoughts of being something on the outside I order to elicit a desired response from outsiders. This girl jumped out at me right away. The skirt, the shirt, the hat… it’s all so silly and had the air of calculation I was after. No one would wear this outfit because it’s what others expect of them, but because of what they expect others to think of it. And while the wearer gets what they think they want, in the end they loose who they really are.

2-23-07

I was in a bad mood when I decided to make this collage; hung up on the advice other people have to give to me. I wanted to figure out how to get them off my back, how to teach them how to treat me. While looking for images I was drawn into every set of eyes I saw. I got to thinking that I don’t need to change what other people think about and offer me; I need to establish what I think of myself and hold that in the highest regard. While making the collage I thought about all of my talents, gifts and accomplishments. Now I am in a good mood. I’m treating my self well. I see myself.

2-22-07

Yesterday I was inspired by the idea of going out on a limb because that is where the fruit is. I made the day’s collage and nothing in particular came to me during its creation. Last night, though, I had some crazy dreams and had to get up to work on the ideas I was getting.

I’ve been in the middle of a project that I feel I must finish before I begin anything else. I have a tendency to divert my attention from one project onto another because the new idea seems more interesting and viable. In the end nothing gets completed.

Last night I was following the ideas and at first was scared because it was all so exciting and irresistible, but I didn’t want to abandon the project I’m working on lest I never complete anything ever. Then it came to me, to go out on a limb and apply the ideas I was having to what I’ve been working on.

I have been working from this new perspective and things seem to be going well. I made this collage while trying to figure out if I am tricking myself into believing that the new direction is the one I should take or if I should stay on the path I’ve been on.

I started with images similar to the ones I’ve been working with and applied techniques I’ve been using, but I applied the techniques to images I would normally treat in a different way. I then used the resulting material in a new way. As I was putting the pieces together I realized that I must continue in the new direction because it will help me see how to harmoniously combine the aspects of my life I’ve been struggling to pull together.